This isn't about 'brownie points', or any scheme, or anything. I've been talking to Iris and Rayne, and I mean actually TALKING to them. Just about stuff, the way it's supposed to be. Even having much deeper moments with Rayne than I ever have in a year and a half. He has a bigger heart than I ever gave him credit for. I've fucked up, when Rayne will talk to me while you won't, that means I fucked up hard. If this was about 'bownie points' why would I be talking to Rayne like that? It wouldn't earn me any even if that was what I was after.
What would I trying to do? You havn't banned me from #girlybois and I havn't tried to go in. The same is for #snowmewtown at the moment untill some things that decided on get sorted out. So what good would 'brownie' points be if I'm not even using them?
I actually read something Rayne said about me that was never meant for me to see and that made something genuinely click and there has been slow but progressive attempts at chance since then. You can't see any of that because you ignore me.
More over, everything seems to be going to hell everywhere. I don't just mean me but everyone right now. I'd like to make something suck a lot less.
Through my psychological despiration I made you feel used and I'm sorry. To be honest I think that ontop of that we all dragged you through this when all you wanted was your life to go back to where it was six months or ago or maybe go somewhere else entirely, what you didn't want was to be a participant in this. And I'm sorry, we shouldn't have dragged you along for this.
What would I trying to do? You havn't banned me from #girlybois and I havn't tried to go in. The same is for #snowmewtown at the moment untill some things that decided on get sorted out. So what good would 'brownie' points be if I'm not even using them?
I actually read something Rayne said about me that was never meant for me to see and that made something genuinely click and there has been slow but progressive attempts at chance since then. You can't see any of that because you ignore me.
More over, everything seems to be going to hell everywhere. I don't just mean me but everyone right now. I'd like to make something suck a lot less.
Through my psychological despiration I made you feel used and I'm sorry. To be honest I think that ontop of that we all dragged you through this when all you wanted was your life to go back to where it was six months or ago or maybe go somewhere else entirely, what you didn't want was to be a participant in this. And I'm sorry, we shouldn't have dragged you along for this.